4. Under Construction as I Prepare for Christ to Come Again
[Doodle by Tara at Doodle Through the Bible; download the free coloring page and full color page on her blog post. This devotion and doodles are our Christmas gift to you and we pray God bless you richly.]
I am currently under construction. Thank you for your patience. My life-long journey of overcoming the lack of self-esteem is a gradual process. As I sit with you, you do not realize what is going on in my head. I may be worried about what you are thinking of me. My self-esteem is always working on me telling me that there is this or that wrong with me. My worries may come across outwardly as stand-offish. I yearn to be myself, but instead I am shy and quiet. I get my nerve up to speak and it comes out overbearing and falsely over-confident as the words spill out loudly in a hurry. As I walk away from you, my brain may be replaying things I said as the devil tempts me to believe I’ve been taken the wrong way. Thank you for not judging me and loving me anyway.
Now that you know my hang-up, please do not try to fix me. I’ve already studied God’s Word on this subject and have an understanding. However, knowing and resisting the sin and temptation that is in human nature is my own journey. This is especially true during this time of Advent when we are celebrating Christ’s first coming and preparing for His second coming. “Therefore, beloved, since you are waiting for these, be diligent to be found by Him without spot or blemish, and at peace” (2 Peter 3:14).
I thank God for this journey He is taking me on and the circumstances He brings me to that continue to keep me growing. I thank God for sustaining me and strengthening me under every situation. I pray that God pulls me out of this self-centered worry and calms my mind in the knowledge that my life is secure in His forgiving, redeeming love.